worst one in awhile

well you really do forget how amazing life feels without migraine until you recover from another one. last night i started feeling one coming on on my way to the neurologist (who by the way could only recommend to me to up my medication, which i'm pretty reluctant to do). he also said something along the lines that 'if i exercised i wouldn't get migraines'...right like the throbbing pain that accompanied my 1/2 marathon "stint" last year wasn't evidence enough that i'm not just a lazy idiot that makes myself sick due to inactivity. sorry, a little bit of bitterness there. so then i meet my friend for dinner but get to the mall 2 hours too early...so i'm walking with my head to the ground dragging my feet around the mall wondering how to keep myself pre-occupied amongst squealing teenagers and their incessently loud musical cell phones for 2 hours. right. so it hits pretty hard by that point and i realize by 1/2 accident that every time i sip an icecap (from tim hortons) that my headache feels momentarily dead and cooled. so i find a book at chapters about 20-something quarterlife crisis management and sit there equipped with a large icecap (due to not having meds on me), 1/2 crying, 1/2 laughing at the situation. time passes and i find a way to drag myself to where i was supposed to meet my friend. we go to a dim lit place and i managed to drink some water and have a few bites of a pretty bad ceasar salad before we leave. i left an 'SOS' message on our answering machine for steve to come rescue me from this chaos as soon as he got back from work. so not knowing whether he'd come or not, i propped myself up on a planter outside the mall (mall was overheated, outside was freezing...i took the better option of the two) and it wasn't 10 minutes before my other half was at my side dragging me into the car. thank god for stephen. he was pretty worried since by that point i was pretty white...i ended up passing out on the carride home and put myself to bed pretty quickly. steve then went out and got one of those face masks that you can freeze for your eyes and brought it to me with some meds while i was 1/2 asleep in bed on a solid iceblock. he sat beside me and read to me for a bit and we called it a night. i woke up this morning relieved and able to think clearly and downed the first of the iron/b12/vitD/vitC combo to feel pretty good now...i'm able to work here this morning & am more confident than ever that i'm marrying not only the right guy, but one that's been with me through my daily battles. it's not until you're passing out on a street corner that you realize how important your support team really is. even paleah (the friend i met up with) brought me computer printouts of potential jobs involving both migraine research and international medicine to help out with my job direction. lesson of the day: build and lean on your support team.